Spring Time Woes

It truly is sad. Sitting here. In rainy Spring
Rob's wedding in on Saturday in 2 days
I've never felt so alone in my life
Well, maybe I have. But this is different.

I used to be comforted by being alone when I was younger. I'm not really comforted anymore. Maybe at times

There is a different sense to being alone. A sense like I have no one. A sense of freedom. A sense of meaninglessness. A sense of nothing really mattering. A sense of numbness