I fear as if I’ve been numbing myself for a long time now. Distracting myself. For years I have been. The pain doesn’t subside though. The only way to function is to become numb. I’m hitting a boiling point. I can’t stay numb forever. My home life is eating me alive. I can’t breathe. I feel as if I’ve been drowning for so long and the only way I’ve been able to prolong it is to stop time. I’ve been stopped in time. I’m starting to be able to breathe again. Time is seemingly moving. I feel as if I’ve just realized how much time has passed since I’ve numbed myself. I’ve lost an important part of myself. I found a couple important parts of myself, but I’ve lost one big one. The pain hurts. It’s excruciating.
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